Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

30 Day Letter Challenge
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

To Henry and Eyvelynn, in 30 years,

I sat for a long time this morning thinking about who I would want to meet. I looked at future 3dlc topics, and there is already one for someone deceased that you would like to speak with, and that's all I had. I thought, if I were pregnant, I would have someone to write about. And then it came to me that I already have two people that I dream of meeting.

To my beautiful children, you are my world. I love you both so much that it hurts. It truly does. I ache with pride at what my babies can do. My dream in life is to meet you guys when you are older. When you have finished school, when you have jobs, when you are married, when you have children of your own. If you are gay, straight, somewhere in between, if you are rich and live in a big house, or if you are scraping by in a studio apartment, I want to know you. If you are a doctor or a custodian, a health nut or sedentary. No matter what or who you are, I will always love you.

I hope that I am raising you to be the adults that I imagine you to be. I constantly question myself, and I know I make mistakes. I hate that I do. I think about all the stories I should have read, all the vegetables I should have served, all the times I get angry when I should get down on my knees to your level and help you understand. I don't know how you will turn out. I don't know who you will be. But I hope you can grow up to love me and know that I did my best, and I hope dearly that we will still be close when you are grown and moved away.

You two are my greatest work, my masterpieces. I pour everything I have into your molds, and I know this means you will be made of some of the bad parts of me, as well as the good ones. I hope you don't have to deal with my depression and anxiety. I hope you have better social skills. I want you to be fulfilled and happy no matter where you are in life. All I want in this world is to know you. If I never accomplish anything else, I want to be there to watch you grow up and blossom into adults with lives and dreams of your own. You are the most amazing gift I could ever hope to receive, and I adore the both of you, and I always will. You are my world.

Love,
Your Mom